JONES, madison carleen

[madison carleen jones]

[atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width: 460px; background-image: url(http://i44.tinypic.com/34fb0ns.jpg);-moz-border-radius: 0px 0px 0px 0px; -webkit-border-radius: 0px 0px 0px 0px; border: 4px ridge #9c5f5b, bTable][tr][cs=2] madison carleen. twenty one. citizen. sophia bush.
[rs=2]	Daughter of Katherine (Greenings)Jones, wedding planning. Daughter of John Cornelius Evans, film maker. Little sister to Jenson Dean Jones, twenty-six. Little sister to Morrison James Jones, twenty-four. Little sister to Wilson Alexander Jones, twenty-two. Big sister to Emerson Daisy Jones, nineteen. Big sister to Carson Lillian Jones, seventeen. "Alright let’s see how I’m going to do this. I guess I will start off from the beginning. Stuff before my adult life. I was born on June 11th here in town. I attended Evergreen High like everyone else in the area. Let's see, my school experience was fine I guess. School equals great. Learning a lot and all the jazz. Is that what you guys want me to talk about? I mean I guess I will talk about that stuff, I was a decent student, ahaha, what am I kidding, I didn't do a thing! I use to copy homework and try cheating on tests. So, I'm not the teachers' favorite. I often talked in classes or passed notes." "I use to be the very thing I hated, a relationship-active-and-party-every-Friday-night attitude. I wasn't a cheater, a gambler, nor a beater, I simply disliked being alone. Around junior year I heard a lot of things about myself, sure I dated half the baseball team but I never one-night standing them or treated them horribly. It was the day I heard such horrible things about myself I quit. Quit relationships, quit drinking, quit going to parties, and jammed my nose into my books. That's who I really was before, before the reality of having to be something after school. No one knows it, but I really miss the partying." "I wear my reputation like a cloak, hiding the fact that inside is a very caring, vulnerable, insecure young woman. I may play up to the fact that all people will ever see is a bitchy, slutty, cheerleader who doesn't notice anybody until they step foot into the inner circle she loves to be in, but there is so much more to me. The best defense I feel that I have is to make sure that people never look below the surface." "To be honest, I'm still quite a self-centered person. I use to act for myself, and only stick out my neck if there is something for me to gain, and I didn't care if I have to step on people in order to get what I wanted. I still like to have a good time, and am still real lenient about rules in order to enjoy oneself. I'm reasonably intelligent, although sometimes I didn't try hard enough and it didn't get the best grades, although I always passed (just to keep my dearest father off my back). I still like to flirt and usually won't let the flirting go any further (unless I'm drunk, really drunk). I can be like a dog with a bone when I want to chase something (or someone) but once I catch it I tend to loose all interest immediately. I enjoy the thrill of the chase, not the reward at the end." "When asked about my future I see myself marrying a young wealthy doctor or lawyer because I have never really felt that I was meant for anything else. Yet, when I'm alone I still dreams big, letting my love for fashion show in my designs that I keep closely guarded. I make sure that I keep an emotional distance from most people. The last time I let my guard down my boyfriend cheated on me. It was enough to make me believe that it's never worth it to put your faith in others. Yet I still do and while I have never been the most forgiving person when I love, I am willing to give out second chances." "I will do anything for the people in my heart. However I expect the same and when I don't get it I go on a rampage. A pissed off girl means everything is fair game and I will hurt you and anybody else that may have slighted me in the process, even if innocent people get hurt. When the time to ask for forgiveness comes I typically do so in a big way. After all I do believe in go big or go home. All you may see is a wild party girl who tells everything like she sees it but look deeper and you'll see that there is a warm heart that is just trying to stay unbroken. " "But I guess its always been that way-- wanting to be loved.. to find someone that makes your heart ache in a good way."
kaitlin. many years.